Depression has been rearing its ugly head again.  I always get depressed this time of year.  It is just worse this time.  My anxiety disorder is trying real hard to mess with me.  I will keep fighting!!! 

It seems like the more I stimulate my mind the deeper it wants to go.  I have always been a thinker and a contemplater.  I love to write poetry and generally try to express my self.  The last few years though I have operated on a little more surface level.  Not really like me but I really thought that I had just changed.  I guess I was just running and hiding from my feelings.  Again, not really like me to do that.  Maybe I just needed a little break from the stress I put myself under.  I don’t know. 

I don’t even know what meaning this post has.  I just needed to write something because it has been so long since I posted.  Maybe I will actually have something to say tomorrow.